Muchos Problemos

I had problems in 1st grade.  The teacher and kids acted like they were whiter.  Kindergarten was good.  I just had a hard time at 1st but was all better.  A very nice, popular black lady as a teacher.  I learned to read nicely, though.  I just went home and had these perverted feelings with the "white kids."  I don't know where it came from.  This was when I 1st left Southeastern Florida, but I very much wanted to be accepted.  I'm sure it was the black hair and them knowing I was part Chinese without me saying anything.  I was like, what.  I just know how to feel cool about myself.  I thought that was their thing.